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This week...

Fri Nov 13, 2009, 4:02 AM
...has been plain awful. I got fired from my internship on the first day and the day after did my boyfriend decide that we should break up.
I didn't have much to say in any of the cases.
It wasn't like someone asked for my view of the situations.

Yesterday, when my boyfriend decided to tell me that we should break up did he try to do it by my mobile phone. Jackass.
I did stand strong, I guess that we are in a somewhat limbo thing, a break maybe, but today did I finally cry over it.

This week has really sucked.

As usual when I get upset, depressed or something alike do I write. So I post it hear so I really can roll around in my depression, my awful week and my sorrow.


I'm looking at you through a wall of glass,
I'm allowed to do that, but nothing less or more.


It feels like you just woke up and realized that you couldn't take it anymore.
Like I suddenly transformed into the poison instead of the cure.


You have left me but before was my heart ripped out and taken with you.
My heart can't leave you. It stays with you even if you hates me for it.
You said that it was a waste if I was someones else.
Did you lie?


I'm so lost.
I can't see there I'm going, I can't sleep since I don't feel safe.


On the outside do I stand tall and proud, no one can push me down.
On the outside can I roar in triumph over my victories.
But when no ones sees do I break apart, when no ones hears do I scream out my loss.
I feel so lonely, so cold when I don't have your love anymore.


You can read it as one long text or as some shorter texts.

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: X-Ray Dog - Night Hounds - Driving All Night
  • Reading: Texts from my boyfriend when he loved me
  • Watching: myself in the mirror(looks awful)
  • Playing: Howrse
  • Eating: No apatite.
  • Drinking: Tea

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:iconlord-kevinz:
thank you for the fave

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:icongunpowdersmoke:
You are welcome :)

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:icongunpowdersmoke:
Your welcome :)

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:iconlyssiana:
Thank you for the :+fav: :deviation:
:icongunpowdersmoke:
Most welcome :)

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:icongunpowdersmoke:
Hehe your welcome :) You takes such amazing pictures I almost feel stupid everytime I fave one of yours.

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And I do know my grammar sucks... you may comment but be kind enough to explain were I do wrong ^^ Easier to learn that way.
:iconlyssiana:
Thank you very much for the fave dear. Your support is very much appreciated :aww: :heart:
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